I recently had a conversation with a friend where she expressed her frustration with herself. She mentioned how she was looking back over the past few years and realized all of the stuff that she could have accomplished by now. That thought really hit home for me. I feel like I cycle through about three mindsets.
1. Anxious that the future isn't going to turn out how I want.
2. Depressed that I have and do not have the life that is as easy as it should have been.
3. Clarity in knowing that I am in full control of what I can do right now to put myself in a better place.
The first usually results in sleepless nights, the second in sleep-filled days, and the last in a surge of motivation and energy.
The thing is...the clock doesn't stop ticking, no matter what mindset I am in. Only one is productive though. I need to focus on what I can do right now to make my situation better. Of course mental illness doesn't operate so cleanly, but that is for another post.
I want to strive for CLARITY. I may not be in control of what happens, but I can control how I react and interact with situations. I can keep letting my life pass me by and be a passive observer, or I can be an active participant.